This entry has nothing to do with any of the requirements. It's not insight on a book ar anything else I read. Instead, this is about something I realized today while talking with a friend.
I mentioned before that I had been part of a very destructive group not long ago, but managed to escape. Yes, escape. I don't use that word lightly either. Anyway, I was talking to a friend who had also been a part of this group. That is actually where I met her. She managed to get out too, but only by completely uprooting her life and moving several hours away. Even then they tried to keep her dependent, but in the end, they simply tried to discredit her. I was stunned at the slander coming from them! Knowing her as well as I do, I knew it was false and even got them to admit it. It happened at the same time as some other major red flags were waving. I knew I had to find a way out.
I eventually did, but only with the help of an elder who had also realized what the once shining group has collapsed into and become. He gave me tips and stepped in to help me leave. It was difficult, but I did it WITHOUT moving away. I was the first to manage that feat! Of course, their slander campaign against me was far worse, but people who know me realized it wasn't true. It is over a year later and they still start it up when my name is in the public eye or they run into me at the store, but that's ok. I can handle it.
Now to the point of this ramble. My friend was challenged in a writer community to a series of "letters not sent". The point is that by saying what you always needed to say to someone no longer in your life or maybe not even with us any longer it can be a big help to deal with the issues never resolved. I saw her blog of this particular letter. It took only a few seconds to realize this one was for the man who led that other group, even though she left out the name and anything personally identifiable. Only someone who knows what was going on could know to whom she was referring.
Reading her words, I agreed with them all. This letter could have been written by myself. At the end, I realized she is still dealing with her issues and hadn't moved too far. I thought about all the other people harmed by this man and how much they are still controlled by these wounds. Then something amazing happened.... I realized that for the first time, while reading about what he did I was ok. I didn't get worked up or angry. I just thought to myself "yep. that's all very true." No other emotion except hope that the letter would help her move on.
Not long ago I posted about a card reading. I had expected a simple one card guidance, but instead ended up with four cards all telling me about entering the Underworld and dealing with my baggage so I could move on. I had thought it would be longer before I would make any progress, but I was wrong. I do realize of course that there is plenty more work to be done, but this is a great accomplishment and it makes me even more optimistic. It has taken a lot of tears and long talks before I could reach this place. It truly helps to see that I am moving on with my life and healing.
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